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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]As previously shared, yeah - we finally got caught. I took the blame for it and didn't even bother to tell the truth that all of this was his idea to begin with because I wasn't going to be believed. The beating that scared both of us didn't happen but the lecture I got is something I will never, ever forget. Didn't stop us from continuing to have sex, mind you, but it taught us a lesson about being too comfortable and not paying attention to what might be going on around us and, what probably got us caught, not to make a whole lot of noise.

Even as we got older, eh, sometimes we'd be sitting in our room - and sometimes because we both got grounded for something - and he'd say, "I need some dick..." or I might have been looking at him and felt my dick stirring and say, "Hey..." and he'd just get undressed and say, "Took you long enough - damn!" We just [B]knew[/B] when we wanted each other and sometimes all it took was just a look; no words were really necessary between us. While we often fought like rabid dogs, I wondered if some of our fighting wasn't due to our general dislike of each other but just a way to have some make-up sex; I remember asking him about that one day and he acted like he didn't know what I was talking about which only made me think that I was right about that.

We never had that "what do you want to do" conversation; it was a given that we'd blow each other, swallow each other's spunk, rest a moment, then fuck each other. Fucking him and being fucked by him was so very different from any other sex I'd experienced with other guys and even today I can't really explain that. It was comfortable, familiar, and just more satisfying. We never complained to each other about anything; there was no such animal as something not being done right and if one of us came "too fast," it wasn't a big deal; just recover for a few and start again.
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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Fact: A lot of guys have their first homosexual experience with a brother. Fact: Parents are very much aware of the possibility and hope that the brothers don't while knowing that they might experiment with each other. "Normally," such experimentation is short-lived and since parents are aware of this, unless the boys get careless or stupid enough to get caught, there's no real need to intervene although it's prudent to remind those horny fuckers not to do anything with each other.

Some parents even know that to tell a kid not to do something is the same thing as telling them to go ahead and do it.

Sex with my brother was good. Very good. We had that familiarity with each other despite our love/hate relationship. It was comfortable. No need to "prove" anything to each other. No "dominant male" games - we were wholly versatile with each other by "default" and probably more than whenever we'd have sex with our male friends. Kid logic suggested that if you couldn't have sex with someone you really knew, who could you have sex with? And who do you know better than your own brother?

Despite our... misgivings with each other, there wasn't a dick I wanted to suck more than his and there wasn't a dick I wanted in my ass more than his. Likewise, he'd tell me that while doing it with his friends was nice and all that, he loved my dick in his mouth and in his ass a lot more. When we weren't almost literally trying to kill each other, we'd often lie awake at night and talk about what would happen if we ever got caught... and sometimes we'd talk about this while having sex. We cared... and not really. We knew we'd get a beating to end all beatings and we both felt it was worth the risk.
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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I've previously shared that my only brother and I were lovers for quite a long time. He had approached me about it and I had told him no because the only other thing that would get you "killed" faster than being suspected of screwing your sister would be to get caught screwing your brother but, kind of strangely, getting caught screwing another boy, while bad, was a lesser offense because boys will be boys after all.

So I caved to him pestering me. It was exciting and scary because of course I knew we shouldn't be doing this but it also felt rather normal at the same time. Discounting the "love/hate" relationship my brother and I had, sex with him was, if nothing else, convenient; until we got bunk beds, we slept in the same bed with each other and even after we got bunk beds, well, we were still in the same room with each other. Our parents did their job and separated us from our sisters (not that it worked) but if it occurred to them to separate the two of us - and maybe it did - well, that didn't happen. Later in life, I wondered if they never bothered to separate us because they knew that we might get around to having sex with each other.

Once the ball got rolling, I got to wondering why having sex with your brother kinda/sorta made sense, you know, the rules notwithstanding. I was beginning to understand, simply, that some kind of "instinct" brought on by hormones more than likely made brothers having sex a "thing" that could happen. Still, morally wrong but, boy, it still felt good when we did it to each other.
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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]It's a parent's worst nightmare to think that their offspring are "experimenting" with sex with each other which, when you stop to think about it, is likely to happen since parents are tasked with the responsibility to keep their children away from sex with other people until they're deemed to be old and responsible enough. Laying down the law has to be done and it's expected that these growing, curious, and hormone-driven fruits of our loins are going to obey and not even go there.

Many don't... and many more do. They not only discover the wonders of sex, it also uncovers their sexuality as well. Toss in the taboo of homosexuality - which has two purposes - and, again, those who inacted the taboos probably didn't think that the rules and punishments would be totally ignored and in favor of the biological imperative to have sex and especially among males.

Your sister might be "off-limits" for sex... but your brother? Well, he's off-limits by rule but there's a reason there's a "hidden" meaning to the saying, "Boys will be boys."
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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]It's one of the biggest taboos of all time. To merely think of it can either be highly exciting or so troubling that vomiting may occur. It was put in place at some point in our history due to birth defects, some not easily noticable and some horrifically so. So if a guy were to screw his sister and knock her up, there's no telling what's gonna happen other than her giving birth. Thus, it made sense to morally outlaw this behavior and it still does although I've read some stuff that suggests that a lot of children are born with birth defects that aren't due to environmental issues, like pollution; it's because our DNA, as a whole, is way too much similar and to the point where a guy and a gal having sex - and they're not related by blood - can wind up with a baby with some serious issues because even though our gene pool has been quite diluted over our existence, there are still a lot of combinations that can cause this issue.

Okay... enough of the science lesson on this... but the history lesson continues. There's a loophole in the law of it and one that was probably exploited before humans even began to understand sexuality: Men can't get men pregnant any more than a woman and impregnate another woman. Likewise, if a male family member has sex with a female family member, hmm, as long as the sperm isn't spilled in the vagina, no pregnancy, no harm, no foul. It's suspected that these loopholes were uncovered and the rule of law against the I word was turned into a blanket: If you have sex with someone in your immediate family, you've just committed a terrible offense.

Manmade laws got to be more... specific. A brother and sister cannot marry - it's a "given" that they're going to have sex and have children - and first cousins aren't allowed to marry - too close to the familial gene pool but second and third cousins, okay - they can marry and have children due to a determined "distance" from the primary gene pool.

So with the moral and legal stuff laid down, I dunno, maybe it was decided that the matter was settled... but humans don't really work like that. I guess they thought that no one would discover the loopholes or that the various threats to one's life would be enough to dissuade anyone from testing the loopholes.

And they were wrong.
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There are videos of men and women coming on to a plumber, pizza guy, etc. Have you had a service person come to your place and you fantasized about doing them? Or even better, have you actually done something with one? Or maybe you are a service person with a true story?

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]And, yes: I have handed out a few very bad beatdowns on those who thought they could, first, bullshit me and then try to flip the script on me and make me do what they wanna do.

By and large, I tend to ignore these kind of guys... but it still gets on my nerves. I am by no means a submissive bottom and, no, I am not saying anything bad about anyone who is. But, um, what part of, "I'm a top, too!" don't they understand? Am I speaking a foreign language when I say, "Nope - you're not gonna fuck me" and you didn't understand it? Why do some of these guys think I'm the one who's fucked up when they tell me how they're gonna make me get on my knees and suck their cock and get my throat fucked... and I've made it clear that they're gonna be on their knees sucking my cock?

I have been of a mind that one should never ask a man to do something that they, themselves, are unwilling to do. You want me to blow you... but you don't suck cock? See ya later and thanks for coming. You wanna dump a load of cum in my ass... but you're not gonna submit to having the same thing done to you? Ain't gonna work, homey.

Yet, there are a lot of guys who really believe that it should work like that and without exception and because they said so. I just can't think of any way guys like this can be more disrepectful and it continues to amaze the fuck out of me when they get offended and feel disrespected after they've offended and disrespected me.

Like the one guy who "made it clear" that he was gonna make me suck his dick, bury it in my ass for a few, pull it out, and make me suck it. And I "made it clear" that if he even tried to make me suck his dick, he just might wake up in a hospital bed and wondering how he got there. Such shit not only disrespects me as a person, it disrespect me as a man.

Homey don't play that. Ever.
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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I've been trying to get my head around this for a long time now... and I'm no closer to being able to explain why this happens other than there are a lot of guys who just believe that they're the man in this and all other guys are just their bitches to take any way they fucking feel like it and you have no choice but to comply to their demands.

It's even assumed that all guys into M2M suck dick and get fucked which, of course, isn't true at all. Like, one guy told me that when I come over - and I never even implied that I would - the first thing I was gonna do was to eat his sweaty asshole. I said, "Nope - ain't into that and ain't doing that." And he went off on me, telling me what I'm supposed to do and some other shit that, if we had been face to face, I would have hurt him badly and, as it was, the whole time he was bad mouthing me, I was thinking of the many ways I could fuck him up.

Which, of course, is why I have an "asshole test" and why guys who behave like this always fail it. Many seem to forget that I'm just as much a man as they are and many tend to find out that I have a really nasty temper when it gets riled up. What, you really think you're gonna make me do something I don't want to do? Oh, I'd love to see you try it... and I hope pain is something you enjoy."

Actually told a guy that once and he actually had the nerve to tell me, "That's not the way this shit goes!" Really? It reveals what can be a fatal flaw in the thinking some men have about this and often tells me that they don't know as much about this as they think they do. Many think they're so alpha and macho that any other man has no choice but to comply and submit to them... but I'm not one of those guys. I know how to say no... and I have the muscle, skill, knowledge and very evil other side to enforce it.
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