[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Incest. A six-letter word and one with probably the most horrific connotations and taboo connected to it. As I said in a recent post about this, we, as a society, want to believe that it doesn't happen while knowing good and damned well that it does. It always has. It always will. It's so well-known that we actually make allowances for siblings to "experiment" with each other and as long as no form of harm happens... and ya don't get caught doing it. My brother and I were lovers for a lot of years and, no, being the oldest, it wasn't even my idea to go there. My only brother asked me to do it with him, begged me to do it, and I said I wouldn't - the risk of getting caught was too great and we both knew what our parents had said about such things - we knew exactly what they meant by, "Or else!" But he kept at me and, yeah, I caved in and we did it... and of all the guys I had had sex with, doing it with him was much, much better. We'd committed a double sin and, as I said earlier, if we got caught or eve suspected of it, the storm that would land on us would make being in hell look like a summer vacation. But I knew that we weren't the only brothers doing it. Damned near any of my friends who had a brother - and yeah, a sister - were committing this sin willfully and, sadly, sometimes, not so much. I watched a friend of mine get done by his much older brother and I could tell it wasn't the first time they'd done it. [/SIZE][/FONT]
I have a really strong desire to be fucked. I watch porn where a guy, outdoors, leans over a tree or table, offering his ass, for the equally naked guy behind to fuck him. That excites me. Let him shoot his cum inside me. Then walk away when he is done.
[QUOTE=cougar333;339325]All cocksuckers like myself have to be very submissive. i love b[COLOR=#333333]eing on one's knees, mouth full of a man's cock. Awaiting him to drop his cum in my miuth turns me on just thinking about it.[/COLOR] W[COLOR=#333333]hen that hot cum starts shooting out of that beutiful cock I have that indescribable pleasure and satisfaction that I have pleased this man. I embrace without question being a submissive gay cocksucker.The taste and swallowing a man's cum is such a pleasure and I take in every drop and thank him for me being able o pleasure him.[/COLOR][/QUOTE]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I got sick and tired listening to gay men preaching their agenda, telling me how confused and in denial I was and that I'd been brainwashed by pussy. One guy asked me, "What can a woman do that a man can't?" "Give me children, for one," I said and holding back a laugh. "If you've never been with a woman, I'm sure you can't understand what it's like." "No, but I've heard..." he began - and I cut him off. "Whatever you've heard doesn't mean shit," I said, my temper starting to get the best of me. "The fact is you don't know what it's like and in any context so you can't understand what it means to me. You're gay - I get it; I even respect it... but you're like a Jehovah's Witness trying to preach your "religion" to me and wanting me to convert to your view of things... and that ain't gonna happen." It got so bad that even when I'd meet "nice and decent" gay dudes, nope - nothing was gonna happen even when we both knew that something should happen. I don't have anything against gay men but I do have a problem with anyone who insists that I stop being who and what I am and in favor of something that, without offense, doesn't make sense for me to do. I know some guys go from bi to gay - because it's what works for them... I'm not one of those guys and, again, without offense, wouldn't want to just be gay. [/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]"If the guy was like you, I'd probably not object a whole lot," I said honestly. "The thing is that I learned a long time ago that I can best take care of my needs both ways. Sure, I can get with guys whenever I want to; I wouldn't be here if that wasn't the case. But just being gay? I don't see the benefits of it. It's said that when you're bisexual, you have the best of both worlds and like I said, I've had a lot of experiences that speak toward that." "But you were with a guy," he said. "Yes... but even as much as I loved him, it never crossed my mind to leave my wife and kids for him. I wasn't - I couldn't - do that and he understood that I wasn't gonna do that," I said. "Even if I didn't have those responsbilities, to just be with a guy? Just doesn't feel right." We did each other again but I didn't enjoy it as much as I had in the other moments because my mind was pondering his original question. Back at home, I spent some time trying to look at it from his point of view and it wasn't easy to do; unlike him, I knew what it was like to be into women and trying to create a scenario in my mind where I wasn't, well, I couldn't do it. After that encounter, it was like I just kept running into gay men who, with or without sex, were insisting that I give up women in favor of just being with men and, frankly, I was getting tired of hearing it. I was getting tired of having sex with them and they'd decide to make their case and then get pissed because I wasn't gonna be totally gay. One guy said I wasn't shit... and I laughed at him and said, "You didn't say that when I had my dick all up in your ass..." That made him even angrier. [/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]He laughed and said that I should seriously consider being gay and I asked him, "Based on what? I'm not trying to piss you off or put down what we've done so far, but I've felt that just being gay is too... limiting; I don't see how or why - how do they put it? - picking one side and staying on it is of any real benefit." "I guess you have a point there," he said. "I've never been with a woman so I wouldn't know what that's like." "I hope you don't expect me to explain it to you," I said with a laugh. "We'd be here for a few years! I get it; some gay men don't know this, don't see the sense in it given where their thoughts and feelings lie. Still, for me to give up women and just be gay just doesn't make any sense to me." He nodded thoughtfully for a moment and we got into it again... and I got a sense that he was trying to do more than getting me off; it was like he was trying to convince me that being gay would be the best thing for me. Don't get me wrong; he was magnificent, attentive, focused. He had asked if we could fuck and I agreed and he fucked me nicely and when I fucked him, he was really responsive and all that. We lay next to each other on the bed (which was trashed) when he said, "Tell me you woulnd't want this from a guy all of the time." [/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]As the saying goes, if I had a dollar for every time I've heard this question - and in the many forms I've heard it - I'd be rich beyond the dreams of avarice. To the best of my recollection, I think the first time I heard it was, surprisingly, when I was 25 or so. A gay man had gotten my attention, we talked, agreed to get together the next day to blow each other. Nice guy, smart, good sense of humor and, importantly, he wasn't my idea of an asshole. Unlike a lot of gay men I'd run into, he wasn't put off by my being bisexual. "Whatever works, right?" he had said. The next day, we meet up at a hotel (a nice one), go to the room he'd gotten and after sitting and talking for a few minutes, we got naked and spent a few more minutes eyeballing each other and exchanging compliments. We got into it, plying our cock sucking skills upon each other until we both came. More compliments and conversation as we relaxed and recharged our batteries. Room service had arrived with something to eat and drink and we wolfed it down, he asked me, "Why aren't you gay?" I blinked. I'd had people ask me why I went both ways before but I'd never had anyone ask me this question and I wasn't sure how to answer it but I stalled by answering his question with one of my own: "Should I be gay?" He shrugged and said that I was a really nice guy and he liked how open-minded I was about things. He cited things like how mature I was and that, in his opinion, I'd make any gay man a good boyfriend. He said that he'd had sex with other bi guys and many of them were disappointed with their relationships with women but what he liked about me was I wasn't disappointed by women and their craziness. "I don't know if this makes any sense but I've always felt that just being gay isn't the way I'm supposed to be," I was finally able to say. "I had an intense relationship with a gay man and we were very much in love with each other but even then, it never crossed my mind to just be gay. Well, that and I like women and pussy too much to just walk away from it." [/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]It didn't explain why my body was achy and especially my stomach muscles but it wasn't unknown to me that you could dream about something and, in the real world, your body could react to whatever you were dreaming about, you know, like dreaming you were in a fight and waking up feeling like you really did get punched in the face. But this? This was impossible! This was just my very active subconscious messing with me and being an asshole by letting me be awake enough to know it was messing with me... wasn't it? I couldn't explain the taste, couldn't explain the sure feeling that I had nutted, couldn't explain the bits of evidence that said I nutted. And one morning when I stumbled into the bathroom to wash up, I couldn't figure out for the life of me where the white, crusty stuff in my moustache came from... and it wasn't dried up slobber because I really did scrape it onto a finger and tasted it. I know what my own spunk tastes like... and now I'm freaking out because everything is pointing to me having done something I hadn't been able to do for a whole lot of years. I still haven't figured it out. Yes, I still have the dream at times and it is consistent; I'm just sitting on the side of the bed (for some reason) and each and every time, I just lean over and start blowing myself until I cum, swallow, and lie back down to go to sleep... and waking up with the unmistakeable taste of it in my mouth and, yeah, sometimes, still on my face somewhere. I can't explain it. I don't believe that my subconscious has somehow gotten me to do something that, again, I haven't been able to do for a whole lot of years but I also can't explain the evidence. Now, I am aware that some people can have sex while they're asleep and not be aware of it, like sleepwalking, but usually, some medications are involved, like sleeping pills (the prescription kind). I know my lady does this because she takes one and I've woken up with her going to town on me in some way - then waking up later and looking at me like I did something to her until I tell her what woke me up and, nope, it really wasn't me, honey. I just know that it's unwise to wake someone up in this state and, ha, I'm no dummy - if she's having sex with me, I'm not gonna stop her! Maybe this is what's happening to me? That one of the medications I routinely take has a side effect on me? I spent some time looking up all of my meds and, nope - none of them has such an effect listed. So what the fuck is going on? Is this some real deal shit... or just my imagination? I still don't know; I can only tell you that it feels very real whenever I have this dream and I've seen - and tasted - evidence of it... but can I believe it? I've never believed that dreams mean anything other than my brain just processing shit in its own way while I'm asleep. But this is too vivid; it's one dream that while it's happening, I'm aware that I'm dreaming and I will mention that after one such dream, I woke up sitting on the side of the bed... and my dick was out and feeling rather nice. Very scary shit and shit I have no logical explanation for... except that somehow and when I'm asleep, I can and have been blowing myself. [/SIZE][/FONT]
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