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So I have always been attracted to my best friend, lets call him Justin. We have lived less than a mile from each other since we were born. He is straight and is dating one of my other best friends (a girl). She knows I am bi and we talk about everything even what she has done with Justin in detail. Which I have to admit really excites me and usually I imagine its me. I am so jealous of her and would almost do anything to get with him. Just wondering if anybody else has ever had a best friend they wanted to get with? If so did u ever get to?

I'd like to know your thoughts on the book.

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Had lil blub 2 mesel' 2 day.. we wer checking wot Crimbo pressies we had and who we needed to get for... came over this wich I bought for me dad's Crimbo much earlier in year...[URL]http://www.djhmodelloco.co.uk/prodpage.asp?productid=3219[/URL] ... an' it didn't haff set me off... when I bought it 'im thought it would keep him outa trouble of an evening building it and know how he so luffed 'is toy trains... thousands of quids worth in 'is loft just left all lonely an sad... Mum hasn't the heart 2 flog cos it wos just so much a part of the ole bugger.. an me big bruvva sure as hell isn't interested.. 1st xmas wivout 'is cheery ole chops and this bloody choo choo hasn't haff brought it home 2 me.. the big babba an' 'is choo choo puffers.. God.. life is shite at times...big boys an' their toys...sighhhhhhh:(.. but thinking of 'im and how happy he always wos mucking 'bout wiv those toy trains does bring a smile 2 me face.. spesh the silly daft childish choo choo toot toot woo woo noises 'e made when 'e thought no1 was around:).

Do not think I will write in this journal any longer. A few different factors have caused the act of writing here to seem untenable. One of those factors is simply a desire to be reticent in general.

Another factor lies in obviously not feeling my life merits exposition here. A few have pointed this out to me, yet the feeling is not caused by their detracting words. I can honestly say that I'm a rather dull person.

Also, one should consider the environment of the site as a factor in this decision. Been here for a while now, I am starting to see the site degenerate from a purpose it seemed to hold, on wholesale. Drew I'm sure does as best he can.

It is not all up to him, though. The people here make it or not. Unfortunately, it seems more keen upon not of late.

I'm barely on the site any more. The forum threads keep repeating. No one really chats in the chat. One can nearly judge the trolling script of the site by the season or vise versa.

And yes, I do believe the site itself is or has been given a script. It repeats, like the forum threads. This script is in place it seems to block any progress, thought, discussion of anything beyond an acceptable "hi, I'm horny."

Bisexuality is only a part of me as a person on whole. I am not always horny. I'm not promiscuous. The site script banks on me being both, it would seem.

Further, I'm not too interested in cyber sex. It only leaves me feeling that much worse for not having the genuine, face to face, flesh to flesh article of sex. All that is on the site is oral sex, as in everyone talks about sex.

I suppose there's nothing wrong in that. It is wrong though for some whom realize there is more to living than sex.And really? There's an adage that applies well I think. Those whom talk it, are not getting it.

I would rather live, get it. So, I'm doubting the purpose of the site and feeling a desire to withdraw. It isn't beneficial to me even as something free.

It is really had to take decent photos of yourself.....I refuse to do the in the mirror bathroom shots, so I set the camera on exposure time and rush to get in the supposed frame before the shutter clicks. I am going to explore a photographer who does sexy pix and if affordable, I may upgrade my postings...plus those pix were taken about 18 lbs ago....the weight loss continuess!!!

<br> ... from a local band that blows me away. <br><br> <iframe width="400" height="100" style="position: relative; display: block; width: 400px; height: 100px;" src="http://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/v=2/track=304211065/size=venti/bgcol=FFFFFF/linkcol=4285BB/" allowtransparency="true" frameborder="0"><a href="http://ramblinambassadors.bandcamp.com/track/clambake">Clambake! by The Ramblin' Ambassadors</a></iframe> <br><br> - Drew :paw:

<br><br> <iframe width="400" height="100" style="position: relative; display: block; width: 400px; height: 100px;" src="http://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/v=2/track=2729814140/size=venti/bgcol=FFFFFF/linkcol=4285BB/" allowtransparency="true" frameborder="0"><a href="http://ramblinambassadors.bandcamp.com/track/standoff-at-calfrobe-bridge-2">Standoff At Calfrobe Bridge by The Ramblin' Ambassadors</a></iframe> <br><br> Hopefully you like this track as much as I do. <br><br> - Drew :paw: