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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Still, it was an amazing thing to learn how to do; guys appreciated you more when you could make all of their cock disappear and even hold it there for long moments; they appreciated it more if I could make it disappear at the moment they started to cum and sometimes I would... if I felt like it; otherwise, they'd start to cum and I'd back off and leave just enough of their dick in my mouth so I could taste their spunk and swallow it easier. Found out that some guys didn't want their dick to vanish like that because for them, it made them cum way before they wanted to and, um, sometimes they'd tell me not to do that... and I'd do it anyway because in my mind, the pleasure of sucking his dick and making him cum wasn't just his alone and I had way too many cock sucking experiences not to know about - and understand - the sheer pleasure I got from sucking on a guy's dick.

Sometimes I'd be sucking a guy's cock and know that he's thinking that I'm doing this to make him feel good... but knowing that I wasn't. Maybe before I learned how to go deep that was true... but for me, well, that changed but, okay - if he thought I was eating his dick for his pleasure alone, he was free to think that... but I knew the truth of things. Being able to eat a whole dick is always a challenge and one I rarely fail to accept and, yeah, maybe it's because I'm "arrogant" enough to believe that there isn't a dick I can't suck and not that many I can make completely disappear. But I'm guilty with a reason because I did, somehow, managed to completely swallow a measured 13" dick. It wasn't easy and my throat was very sore days afterward but, yeah, I did it and it surprised the shit out of the guy... and surprised me, too.

So, yeah - I have a reason for thinking the way I do about it because if I could make that dick disappear... but in the doing, yeah, I was reminded that just because you can do it doesn't mean that you should.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]The one thing I learned, even early on, was that I hated someone grabbing my head and fucking me in the mouth - and this, of course, was way before face-fucking became a thing. That fixed in my mind that there's a big difference between sucking a dick and having it fucked into your mouth. Yeah, I knew that you could make your mouth feel like pussy and all that... but the mouth isn't a pussy and there's that whole being able to breathe thing to consider and, quite a few times, I'd either stop sucking the guy who had a vice grip on my head or, if he wouldn't let go, well, let's just say that he didn't like how I'd make him let go of my head, like the one guy who refused to stop ramming his cock down my throat while holding my head... and I gave him an uppercut to the nuts... then gave him another one for good measure.

When he woke up, I was dressed and said, "If we ever do this again - and we probably won't - I'm thinking that the next time I try to stop you from doing that, you're gonna stop right away, huh?" A lot of girls would tell me how much they hated it when guys did that and I completely understood why so whenever a girl was sucking my dick, I just wouldn't grab their head and "make" them suck me. I might put my hand gently on their head - and I'd feel them tense but then relax when they realized I just had my hand there and nothing more.

Through all of this, I most certainly learned why girls/women didn't like sucking dick... because a lot of guys would make them not like doing it... and I was determined to not be one of those guys when someone was sucking my dick. Sure... it was different when whoever was sucking my dick would grab my ass and shove me into their mouth deeper although it took me a while to really get that what they wanted me to do was to fuck their mouth. Oh, okay! Duh! Even then, I wouldn't grab their head or try to fuck more of myself into their mouth than they could handle or wanted in there. My second and current wife asked me, while we were dating, why I wasn't grabbing her head and fucking her mouth and I told her that it was because most women didn't like it... so I didn't do it... and for some reason, that didn't make her happy so, going forward and whenever she blew me, I had to "learn" how to grab her head to hold it still so I could shove every inch of myself in and out of her mouth and more so when I came; she liked it better when I was fully buried and cumming...

And I didn't bother to ask her why although I reasoned that she knew the same thing I did - you can't taste cum that far back and it's easier to swallow.

It's a skill a lot of cock suckers want to master... but aren't able to. Along the way, I learned a lot of physiology about mouths, like some mouths are just smaller and facial muscles can only be "stressed" so much before the cock sucking for them becomes a painful problem. Both men and women would ask me how to take it deep and I'd tell them what I learned... but with the caveat to never try to do more than you're able to do and more so when I'd heard too many horror stories of both guys and girls being choked or wound up breathing sperm or saliva and a rumor was running around that some guy actually choked a girl to death with his dick and ignored her attempts to get away from him so she could breathe.

Don't know if it was really true but, at least for me, it was something to pay attention to and a reminder to be the one in control of things when I had a dick in my mouth... and knowing that I had the muscle, skill, and will to make a guy stop when I needed him to. I even learned to tell a guy to just lie there and let me do what I do and enjoy it - I don't need any help sucking your dick, okay? You can't stop a guy from that automatic fucking motion when it starts getting good to them but you don't have to let it get out of hand and to the point where having his dick in your mouth stops being fun and starts being a problem for you.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]I was learning that a lot of guys liked to bury their dick deep in my mouth - then shoot jizz, making me have to step up my learning ability to deal with that so I wouldn't have their stuff going down the wrong pipe, which happened from time to time - there's nothing worse than having sperm coming out of your nose and feeling your body reacting to pretty much an attempt to drown and most of the time, that reaction was quite violent... and messy and, yep, sometimes throwing up was the answer to being able to keep breathing or, at the very least, not passing out; found out that passing out with a dick lodged in your mouth and throat wasn't fun at all and was very embarrassing.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]By the time I turned 12, there weren't that many dicks I couldn't go deep on... including the very few remaining adult dicks I was lucky to suck. It was quite the ego trip to be able to do that to a grownup dick and hear them gasping with surprise or, as one guy did, the moment I made his dick disappear, he shot his stuff right away and there was so much of it I almost choked on it and damned near passed out because his dick was swelling up so much every time it shot that it was cutting off my ability to breathe.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]But it was worth it. It was worth having a sore throat afterwards or feeling that toothache-like pain of over-stressed jaw and neck muscles. I even learned how to stop guys from ramming their dick into my mouth and throat - all I had to do was what a lot of girls learned to do: Put my hand on his stomach and push back or, sometimes easier, when he pulled back, just wrap my hand around the base of his dick and keep it there and, yeah, some guys would try to remove my hand but a good, hard squeeze would send the message rather nicely.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]I even learned that you didn't always have to take it deep if you didn't want to and that it was always... good to let a guy know that you could do it and, I guess, it was a "nice" way to tease them and to kinda control them; if you want me to do that again, then you should just hold still while I do it. I - and my friends - had learned the skill of taking a dick deep and I can't - couldn't - speak for them but I loved it whenever someone - guy or gal - could make all of my dick disappear... and just like I now knew how to do it.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]Years later, I'm sitting in a movie theater in San Francisco watching "Deep Throat" for the first time and when Linda Lovelace made that huge dick disappear, a lot of guys in the theater gasped and cheered... and I thought to myself, "I can do that..." so watching her do that very famous thing wasn't that big of a deal for me - but it was impressive just the same. I found that it's a skill that one has to be able to not only master but refine but once you learn it - and do it as much as you can - it becomes second nature that you can do it without having to really think about it and that would happen because you were able to train your body not to react badly to having dick - any dick - fully in your mouth and, yeah, sometimes into your throat directly.[/FONT][/SIZE]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]This new thing spread like wildfire but, as you might imagine, when any of us would be sucking a dick that wasn't one of the gangs', it wasn't always as easy to make some of the older guys' dicks disappear like that. Lord knows that in my other cock sucking endeavors, I gagged a lot trying to do it and even threw up a couple of times and the other and older guy would be alarmed and would tell me to not try to do that if I couldn't do it... but I was very determined to do it because, one, it felt good and produced interesting results and, two, I wasn't gonna be tagged as a chump who, at the least, wouldn't try it.

The adult dicks I sucked were "impossible" to do that to; to a pre-teen, adult dicks looked gigantic snakes and some of which those of us who gave head to them were so long and thick that we could barely get them into our mouth, let alone much more that the head. But we were now armed with this new thing and while I don't know about the rest of my friends, I was determined to get all of an adult dick into my mouth and, hopefully, without continuing to embarrass myself by gagging and having snot running out of my nose and all that. As I recall, I was 11 when I first went deep on a grownup dick and, in his defense and mine, eh, his dick wasn't all that big - about five inches erect.

As I sucked on him, it clicked in my head that if I relaxed and breathed through my nose more than my mouth, more and more of his dick was going in my mouth. I was sure that he wasn't really paying attention to what I was trying to do to him; he was too busy telling me how good I was sucking his dick and to not stop. Little by little, more of his dick vanished into my mouth until I got to a moment when I thought, "I can get all of it now!"

I took a deep breath through my stuffy nose, relaxed my whole body, and pretty much slammed my mouth onto him and - yes! My nose was buried in his bush and tickling my nose something fierce but just before I was about to raise my head - so I could breathe - I heard him say, "Oh, shit!" - and the next thing I knew, I could feel his jizz sliding right down my throat and, yes, I almost choked on it and his swollen dick but managed to keep it together so I could swallow (which helped matters) until his dick went very soft.

"Jesus Christ," he said. "Where did you learn to do that?" I think I shrugged; I was a bit fussy and probably because doing that made it hard for me to breathe around my stuffy nose. "Boy, if you can do that, a lot of men are gonna want you to suck their dick!" I was... worried that he was going to tell those who liked us kids sucking their dick that I could do that - but, as it turned out, he didn't... but that didn't mean that after that successful attempt, I was going to stop trying to do that to every dick that went into my mouth.

With bigger and/or fatter dicks, nah, it still wasn't as easy as I thought it should be but I was learning some shit about sucking dicks as well as learning the lesson of not trying to do more than you're physically able to do... but a lot of guys with the bigger dicks were duly impressed at my attempts to suck down all of their dick and, if I gagged a lot, they didn't give me any shit or teased me about it - they'd just say, "You're trying and that counts for something!"

Back among my friends, sucking down all of their dick was now easier and some of us could do it so well that not only could we get all of the dick in, if we could open our mouth wide enough, we could get their balls in our mouth at the same time... well, sometimes. I know I tried it quite a few times; sometimes I could, most of the time I couldn't because it would make my jaw and whole face hurt with the strain so like many of us, I gave up trying to suck all of the dick and trying to stuff the guy's nuts in my mouth, too.

In fact, it wouldn't be for a great many years before I'd run into a guy who was only three inches when fully erect and, as such, I could get his cock and balls in my mouth easily - what a rush.

The fellas weren't the only ones who figured this new trick out; almost all of the girls who sucked dick were able to do it, too; maybe not as much or as long as us guys could but, yeah, it was incredible to watch/feel a girl swoop down and make our dick disappear like that. One girl did it to me and let me go long enough to ask, "Did you like that... and did I do it right?" I said that I liked it and she did it right; she smiled and went right back to doing it until I came in her mouth - and while she had all of my dick in there, too!

Much, much later in life, I'd discover that the best way to avoid the taste of sperm was to not let it hit the front of your tongue where all the taste buds live; if it shot more toward the back, you could feel it... but not taste it so much. But, sheesh, at the time of this ground-breaking discovery, we were all too hyped up about being able to do it and not all that worried about not tasting the jizz. What we were finding out was that being able to do this would get you the "honor" of being a really good cock sucker and I know that I spent the intervening years honing my ability to deep throat a dick; not only to be able to take it deep but to be able to just hold it there, too. I also learned how to better breathe and relax so that a guy could fuck his whole dick into my mouth and to not panic when I felt the head of his dick, sometimes, going down my throat and believe me, that wasn't an easy thing to learn since, you know, being able to breathe trumps anything else.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I don't know when it occurred to me and my very horny friends that, when we were sucking on each other, to suck down all of the dick available. I don't know who among us was the first to figure this out or who was the first to do it; to me - and as with all of the stuff we were discovering, it was like some kind of group knowledge thing in that we were figuring out/discovering things at almost the exact same time.

What I know is that one day, I was happily sucking on a friend's dick and, at some point, I had all of it in my mouth and for a few "seconds" my nose was pressed against his pubic bone. He gasped and said, "Do that again!" and I did... over and over until he flooded my mouth with his sperm. In my head, it just kinda clicked that if you can do that when sucking a guy's dick, it makes him feel really good and better than he was before that happened.

Hmm. While I pondered this, he was between my legs and sucking on my dick and, sure enough, he buried his nose against my pubic bone and it was like an electric shock and not all that different from him shoving his finger in my butt, which he didn't do. I said what he did: "Do that again" and he did and, wow, it really did feel way better than not doing that. It didn't take him long to get me to flood his mouth with jizz and when he finally released me, we both knew we were onto something special... and we couldn't wait to show the other fellas...

Except, they knew about that, too; as the guy and I rounded up the rest of the guys and told them what we'd discovered, they were all like, "I know! That is so cool, ain't it!" And off we went to a clubhouse to do this new thing to each other. It was relatively easy because most of the guys were... small, with myself and one other guy being "bigger" - and he was only bigger than me by a mere 1/4 of an inch when fully hard - and, yes, we had broken out the ruler to find out which one of us was bigger.

Kids, right? Some of the guys had "issues" with it - gagging, mostly, although one guy threw up his lunch on somebody and, again, in that weird kind of group connection, everyone just seemed to know why the guys who were gagging were doing it and why the one guy barfed - and figured out how to not make that happen so much.

And the group deep cock sucking experiment continued until no dick went unsucked and all balls were deliciously empty. One guy said, "It's almost like having all of your dick in somebody's butt because it's all in there and we know that feels good!"

He was right, of course, at least at a high level but sure - we'd long since figured out that if you put all of your dick in a guy's butt, it just felt really, really good for both guys. So we just put 2 + 2 together and now, among us, if you couldn't take all of another guy's dick in your mouth, you were a chump.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[COLOR=#303030][FONT=Roboto]This is true. I went to an adult theater in Palm Beach to get some dick..There are only two theaters one gay and one straight but both equally fun. I was wearing some gym shorts that I had cut the lining out and a tshirt. I went in the gay side and stood next to this guy. I slowly moved my hand to his dick. He reached over and kissed me and pulled me to him then push me down on my knees. He pulled his pants down and revealed one sweet cock. I started to suck him and he put his hands on my head so I would go deep. There were other guys there watching. After a few minutes of sucking he had me stand. He pulled my tshirt over my head and pulled my shorts down and off. I was naked. He gave me my clothes and grabbed my dick. He lead me from the gay theater to the straight one. Guys were in there and most took a good look as we came in. He took me to a back row where guys usually set looking for some action. He took me to one guy and offered my service. I was on my knees again this time sucking a nice but small cock. After him he moved me to another guy and another until I had sucked off five guys. He had me suck him again and he shot a huge load in my mouth that he had me swallow. He left. That was so much fun and so hot and so true.[/FONT][/COLOR]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Still, the apps and sites remain an option for those who are having trouble meeting guys; one has to be patient and determined to sort out the flakes, fakes, and assholes who live on the sites and apps. My protege swears by them and I think he's on all of them... but he lives in San Francisco, clearly the "gayest place in America" but even he has voiced some angst about some of the guys who hit on him and are his idea of an undesirable asshole. He tells me that most of the men hitting on him are looking for a boyfriend or to be an exclusive FWB and while he's still relatively new to anal, he often complains about all the men with really big dicks who want to fuck him in his "lily white and very tight" ass - his words, not mine.

I see the guys here who aren't fond of the apps and sites either; while it's a good thing that these things have given a greater exposure to all of the men who are looking for a dick to play with, it's just a damned shame that there aren't many more reasonable guys to be found on them. When I go to look to see who might be available and there's a guy who's idea of fun is for me to come over and literally shit on him because that's what gets his rocks off, well, that's a problem... and one I don't ever want to be bothered with.

And some folks wonder why I miss my good old days so much...[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]We actually got into an argument about it! I asked, "What part of 'I'm bisexual' didn't you understand?" He responded by saying, "You're just another nigger in denial about really being gay!" and hung up on me. I so wanted to go over there and kick his ass... but it wasn't worth it.

Like so many guys were finding out, the apps and sites were... disappointing. Too many fakes and flakes and way too many assholes; they were now more of a problem than they were a good way and when A4A sent me an email noting my lack of access and saying my account would be deleted, I was happy to let them do just that and more so when I was having better success - and more fun - just running into guys by pure chance and luck. It put me in a frame of mind to tell many of the assholes, "If you don't have the time to get to know me, you don't have the time to have sex with me..." and I didn't mean getting to know me so we could be boyfriends or even FWBs because while I love sucking dick and being sucked, I'm not stupid or careless or even "desperate" enough to just do something without knowing anything about the other guy... and what he might be hiding and/or lying about.

I had more success using apps and sites to get pussy, as crazy as that might sound. The environment for men who liked having sex with men was... toxic and I can't think of a better word right at this moment. There are guys who would be good guys to get with... but that meant wading through a lot of... undesirable guys in order to find them... and I had better things to do and, again, I was having more success and fun just running into someone by chance/accident.[/SIZE][/FONT]