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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]This new thing spread like wildfire but, as you might imagine, when any of us would be sucking a dick that wasn't one of the gangs', it wasn't always as easy to make some of the older guys' dicks disappear like that. Lord knows that in my other cock sucking endeavors, I gagged a lot trying to do it and even threw up a couple of times and the other and older guy would be alarmed and would tell me to not try to do that if I couldn't do it... but I was very determined to do it because, one, it felt good and produced interesting results and, two, I wasn't gonna be tagged as a chump who, at the least, wouldn't try it.

The adult dicks I sucked were "impossible" to do that to; to a pre-teen, adult dicks looked gigantic snakes and some of which those of us who gave head to them were so long and thick that we could barely get them into our mouth, let alone much more that the head. But we were now armed with this new thing and while I don't know about the rest of my friends, I was determined to get all of an adult dick into my mouth and, hopefully, without continuing to embarrass myself by gagging and having snot running out of my nose and all that. As I recall, I was 11 when I first went deep on a grownup dick and, in his defense and mine, eh, his dick wasn't all that big - about five inches erect.

As I sucked on him, it clicked in my head that if I relaxed and breathed through my nose more than my mouth, more and more of his dick was going in my mouth. I was sure that he wasn't really paying attention to what I was trying to do to him; he was too busy telling me how good I was sucking his dick and to not stop. Little by little, more of his dick vanished into my mouth until I got to a moment when I thought, "I can get all of it now!"

I took a deep breath through my stuffy nose, relaxed my whole body, and pretty much slammed my mouth onto him and - yes! My nose was buried in his bush and tickling my nose something fierce but just before I was about to raise my head - so I could breathe - I heard him say, "Oh, shit!" - and the next thing I knew, I could feel his jizz sliding right down my throat and, yes, I almost choked on it and his swollen dick but managed to keep it together so I could swallow (which helped matters) until his dick went very soft.

"Jesus Christ," he said. "Where did you learn to do that?" I think I shrugged; I was a bit fussy and probably because doing that made it hard for me to breathe around my stuffy nose. "Boy, if you can do that, a lot of men are gonna want you to suck their dick!" I was... worried that he was going to tell those who liked us kids sucking their dick that I could do that - but, as it turned out, he didn't... but that didn't mean that after that successful attempt, I was going to stop trying to do that to every dick that went into my mouth.

With bigger and/or fatter dicks, nah, it still wasn't as easy as I thought it should be but I was learning some shit about sucking dicks as well as learning the lesson of not trying to do more than you're physically able to do... but a lot of guys with the bigger dicks were duly impressed at my attempts to suck down all of their dick and, if I gagged a lot, they didn't give me any shit or teased me about it - they'd just say, "You're trying and that counts for something!"

Back among my friends, sucking down all of their dick was now easier and some of us could do it so well that not only could we get all of the dick in, if we could open our mouth wide enough, we could get their balls in our mouth at the same time... well, sometimes. I know I tried it quite a few times; sometimes I could, most of the time I couldn't because it would make my jaw and whole face hurt with the strain so like many of us, I gave up trying to suck all of the dick and trying to stuff the guy's nuts in my mouth, too.

In fact, it wouldn't be for a great many years before I'd run into a guy who was only three inches when fully erect and, as such, I could get his cock and balls in my mouth easily - what a rush.

The fellas weren't the only ones who figured this new trick out; almost all of the girls who sucked dick were able to do it, too; maybe not as much or as long as us guys could but, yeah, it was incredible to watch/feel a girl swoop down and make our dick disappear like that. One girl did it to me and let me go long enough to ask, "Did you like that... and did I do it right?" I said that I liked it and she did it right; she smiled and went right back to doing it until I came in her mouth - and while she had all of my dick in there, too!

Much, much later in life, I'd discover that the best way to avoid the taste of sperm was to not let it hit the front of your tongue where all the taste buds live; if it shot more toward the back, you could feel it... but not taste it so much. But, sheesh, at the time of this ground-breaking discovery, we were all too hyped up about being able to do it and not all that worried about not tasting the jizz. What we were finding out was that being able to do this would get you the "honor" of being a really good cock sucker and I know that I spent the intervening years honing my ability to deep throat a dick; not only to be able to take it deep but to be able to just hold it there, too. I also learned how to better breathe and relax so that a guy could fuck his whole dick into my mouth and to not panic when I felt the head of his dick, sometimes, going down my throat and believe me, that wasn't an easy thing to learn since, you know, being able to breathe trumps anything else.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I don't know when it occurred to me and my very horny friends that, when we were sucking on each other, to suck down all of the dick available. I don't know who among us was the first to figure this out or who was the first to do it; to me - and as with all of the stuff we were discovering, it was like some kind of group knowledge thing in that we were figuring out/discovering things at almost the exact same time.

What I know is that one day, I was happily sucking on a friend's dick and, at some point, I had all of it in my mouth and for a few "seconds" my nose was pressed against his pubic bone. He gasped and said, "Do that again!" and I did... over and over until he flooded my mouth with his sperm. In my head, it just kinda clicked that if you can do that when sucking a guy's dick, it makes him feel really good and better than he was before that happened.

Hmm. While I pondered this, he was between my legs and sucking on my dick and, sure enough, he buried his nose against my pubic bone and it was like an electric shock and not all that different from him shoving his finger in my butt, which he didn't do. I said what he did: "Do that again" and he did and, wow, it really did feel way better than not doing that. It didn't take him long to get me to flood his mouth with jizz and when he finally released me, we both knew we were onto something special... and we couldn't wait to show the other fellas...

Except, they knew about that, too; as the guy and I rounded up the rest of the guys and told them what we'd discovered, they were all like, "I know! That is so cool, ain't it!" And off we went to a clubhouse to do this new thing to each other. It was relatively easy because most of the guys were... small, with myself and one other guy being "bigger" - and he was only bigger than me by a mere 1/4 of an inch when fully hard - and, yes, we had broken out the ruler to find out which one of us was bigger.

Kids, right? Some of the guys had "issues" with it - gagging, mostly, although one guy threw up his lunch on somebody and, again, in that weird kind of group connection, everyone just seemed to know why the guys who were gagging were doing it and why the one guy barfed - and figured out how to not make that happen so much.

And the group deep cock sucking experiment continued until no dick went unsucked and all balls were deliciously empty. One guy said, "It's almost like having all of your dick in somebody's butt because it's all in there and we know that feels good!"

He was right, of course, at least at a high level but sure - we'd long since figured out that if you put all of your dick in a guy's butt, it just felt really, really good for both guys. So we just put 2 + 2 together and now, among us, if you couldn't take all of another guy's dick in your mouth, you were a chump.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[COLOR=#303030][FONT=Roboto]This is true. I went to an adult theater in Palm Beach to get some dick..There are only two theaters one gay and one straight but both equally fun. I was wearing some gym shorts that I had cut the lining out and a tshirt. I went in the gay side and stood next to this guy. I slowly moved my hand to his dick. He reached over and kissed me and pulled me to him then push me down on my knees. He pulled his pants down and revealed one sweet cock. I started to suck him and he put his hands on my head so I would go deep. There were other guys there watching. After a few minutes of sucking he had me stand. He pulled my tshirt over my head and pulled my shorts down and off. I was naked. He gave me my clothes and grabbed my dick. He lead me from the gay theater to the straight one. Guys were in there and most took a good look as we came in. He took me to a back row where guys usually set looking for some action. He took me to one guy and offered my service. I was on my knees again this time sucking a nice but small cock. After him he moved me to another guy and another until I had sucked off five guys. He had me suck him again and he shot a huge load in my mouth that he had me swallow. He left. That was so much fun and so hot and so true.[/FONT][/COLOR]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Still, the apps and sites remain an option for those who are having trouble meeting guys; one has to be patient and determined to sort out the flakes, fakes, and assholes who live on the sites and apps. My protege swears by them and I think he's on all of them... but he lives in San Francisco, clearly the "gayest place in America" but even he has voiced some angst about some of the guys who hit on him and are his idea of an undesirable asshole. He tells me that most of the men hitting on him are looking for a boyfriend or to be an exclusive FWB and while he's still relatively new to anal, he often complains about all the men with really big dicks who want to fuck him in his "lily white and very tight" ass - his words, not mine.

I see the guys here who aren't fond of the apps and sites either; while it's a good thing that these things have given a greater exposure to all of the men who are looking for a dick to play with, it's just a damned shame that there aren't many more reasonable guys to be found on them. When I go to look to see who might be available and there's a guy who's idea of fun is for me to come over and literally shit on him because that's what gets his rocks off, well, that's a problem... and one I don't ever want to be bothered with.

And some folks wonder why I miss my good old days so much...[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]We actually got into an argument about it! I asked, "What part of 'I'm bisexual' didn't you understand?" He responded by saying, "You're just another nigger in denial about really being gay!" and hung up on me. I so wanted to go over there and kick his ass... but it wasn't worth it.

Like so many guys were finding out, the apps and sites were... disappointing. Too many fakes and flakes and way too many assholes; they were now more of a problem than they were a good way and when A4A sent me an email noting my lack of access and saying my account would be deleted, I was happy to let them do just that and more so when I was having better success - and more fun - just running into guys by pure chance and luck. It put me in a frame of mind to tell many of the assholes, "If you don't have the time to get to know me, you don't have the time to have sex with me..." and I didn't mean getting to know me so we could be boyfriends or even FWBs because while I love sucking dick and being sucked, I'm not stupid or careless or even "desperate" enough to just do something without knowing anything about the other guy... and what he might be hiding and/or lying about.

I had more success using apps and sites to get pussy, as crazy as that might sound. The environment for men who liked having sex with men was... toxic and I can't think of a better word right at this moment. There are guys who would be good guys to get with... but that meant wading through a lot of... undesirable guys in order to find them... and I had better things to do and, again, I was having more success and fun just running into someone by chance/accident.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]There was the guy who wanted to truss me up like a Christmas goose and inflict pain on me before shoving his dick - and some other shit he had - in my ass. Or the guy who wanted me to tie him up and do whatever I felt like doing to him. Or the guy looking to fulfill his rape fantasy; he wanted me to "break into" his place, "kick his ass," and force him to suck my dick and take it in his ass... repeatedly and as in he would refer for me to come over and be prepared to stay the whole weekend.

The many younger guys looking for "daddy;" many of them were just looking for a sugar daddy to take care of them like they were a kept woman and some of them expected me to pay them! Some of them had real daddy issues - daddy had been the one to turn them onto dick and sex, for them, didn't have much meaning unless someone who was a real-life daddy "adopted" them and fed their mouths and asses with fatherly cock and sperm.

It was getting harder and harder to find a guy on this site - or any of the others - who I would be interested in getting naked with and those I could find, it was usually one and done and not by my choice. Indeed, there was only one guy I got with more than once; the first time we just sucked each other off but the next time, I dunno, he couldn't get me to cum with his mouth and I wound up pulling out of his mouth, flipping him over, and fucking him until I did cum. We would have seen more of each other except, um, he wanted me to leave the two women I lived with, promise to never touch another pussy, and move in with him.

Wasn't going to do that...[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I also met a lot of bi guys who were fun to just talk to. A lot of them were married, closeted, and unable to come out to play and I'd come to feel "sorry" for those guys, many of whom had always wanted sex with men but had yet to do anything at all. I clearly remember the 60-something guy I met there whose story and situation nearly had me in tears: His wife of many years had died; he'd been diagnosed with prostate cancer and had it removed; according to him, he had the worst case of ED ever experienced by men. But the thing I came to admire and respect about him was him saying that while he couldn't get hard and couldn't bust a nut, he had a mouth and an asshole that was working and that any man could, if they wanted to, come to him, get sucked off and fuck him as long as they wanted to.

I was even more impressed with him when he said that until his wife died, he had no interest in sex with men but, as he said, "I had to do something, right?" I never got a chance to visit with him; every time I thought I could, something would come up and get in the way of us just getting to have coffee together.

I started to see a lot of guys who, to put it nicely, I wouldn't have sex with if I had to in order to save my life. There was this one guy who wanted me to come over and piss in his mouth, in his ass, and all over him; there was another guy who asked me if I'd be turned off to see him wearing lingerie to answer the door if I came over; there was the guy who made it clear that he'd need to be punished for soiling his diaper and "deserved" to be fucked good and hard in his ass... after I cleaned him up.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]While the site was a "gay dating" site, not all of the men there were gay and I even noticed that a lot of the guys who passed my asshole test were white and very gay; maybe it was just my "bad luck" but I didn't come across many bi guys who were willing and able to come out and play; in fact, in all the years I'd been on A4A, I only got with one bi guy - the rest were gay.

I found this... interesting but not all that troubling except when those gay men would do their best to convert me to being gay. What was troubling were the many times I'd get rejected, sometimes because I was Black, sometimes because my dick wasn't two feet long and thick, and sometimes because my dick spent a lot of time inside of pussy. There were the guys who were... very pushy and arrogant, talking shit about how they were gonna make me their bitch and if I was a real man, I'd hurry up and come to them and be a good little girl for them and take their big dicks in my mouth and "pussy" and if I didn't, I wasn't shit. One guy wanted me to come over right away so he could slap me around and "soften me up" so I could be his sex slave for life!

[B]Then[/B] there were the white guys who made it clear that they suffered from a very bad case of jungle fever and would, during "negotiations," go off the rails talking about how much they loved Black cock and the bigger the better. They wanted to suck it, wanted to be fucked by it... but didn't really give a shit about me as a person or what, if anything, I was interested in. That, by itself, didn't bother me - I'd long since gotten used to sometimes just being a piece of ass for some horny guy... but this? This was... kinda scary.
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